prayers for zander

my darling zander is so very very sick. i'm really worried about him. as the day/night progressed he got worse and worse. his fever was 102 and i took him to after hours pediatrics. he would barely stand at all and always wanted to sit on my lap. very not like zander. his eyes looked like he had been crying for days, and his cheeks were super flushed. i've just never seen him look this sick. the absolutely NOT SMART doctor heard me say that z had had some nasal drainage for about a week and said, 'oh its a sinus infection'. umm...no its not. i said well don't you think he might have the flu? he's sick to his stomach, sore throat, coughing, fever....ummm...sounds like the flu. so she gives me antibiotics for his 'sinus infection'. idiot doctor.
so on the way home...we had to go to the after hours in mira mesa about 25 minutes away. as soon as we got on the highway zander started puking. fortunately i had stolen a puke thingy from the dr.'s office. so z got all his puke in it...an extremely large amount. then he tried to move it...while i'm driving 70 mph....yup, it spilled all over ben's car. ben's almost brand new car. so i quickly pull over to the side of the highway...but guess what? it's ben's car...no blankets, no wipes, only three mcdonalds napkins. umm...that's not going to cover much. so the poor boy had to ride 20 more minutes home in his own puke. brutal.
so i got home and tried to help ben get the boys in bed when jade woke up. so i quickly ran in her room to rock her back to sleep. as i'm laying her back in bed i see that there is spit up all over the top of her bed...did i pick her back up and clean it up? nope....i sniffed it, made sure it wasn't barf, and let her go back to sleep. i'll give her a bath in the morning. what can you do? i'm tired. :)