Retreat

Ben and i decided last minute to use up our free nights in a resort in ramona during his days off this week. sunday night we drove up there (about an hour) and stayed through wednesday morning. it was such a wonderful, needed, restful time. it's in the middle of no where and there are horse ranches everywhere. we pretty much stayed by the pool every day and the boys loved that. they are truly water babies. and would you believe i didn't take a single picture? i'm so dumb. it was a two bedroom suit so once the boys went to sleep we had some time to ourselves. we rented the season two of "bones" which was fun to watch. but we got back wednesday and started running! my dear friend's mother's funeral was today, thursday, and we are trying to put together the baby shower for the same girl for next weekend. we want to have it before the babies born so there's lots of planning to do in a short time. what a mix of death and life. i wanted so badly to celebrate dawn's homecoming to her Savior, but at the same time you feel such loss. i mourn for the emptiness my friend now feels in losing her mother. i just don't think you ever get over that. i constantly am thinking about what life would be like if i lost my mother and my heart goes through my throat. i just can't bear to think about it.
but don't be mistaken, God is good, all the time. as was said in the funeral, "the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, but Blessed be the Name of the Lord." ok, crying again, i gotta stop this!!!!
so tomorrow i have another research study for Taylor research on digital video storing. i'm excited cause it's two hours and $100 bucks. doing one of these a month is making up the money i would have gotten working at the salon for two weeks. so that makes me feel better.
also, graduation at the seminary is this weekend. all my friends that i started seminary with are graduating so i will enjoy going to it this year. i'm even makign a sweet sign for my friend Gina. she's going to be so embarressed. but that's half the fun!