Surprise, i can blog after having a baby

i am so tired, but doing ok i guess. jade is doing well, but starting to look jaundice to me. we go to the doctor tomorrow and i suppose we'll have to have her tested again. not fun. nursing has been rough again too. it hurts like crazy but is getting better i think. ben has turned into my 'lactation consultant' and has been doing research online to find out how to make it better. we sit here at night and read together and try to figure it out. he's such a good supportive husband. i'm so greatful for him and his encouragement. ok, but enough about that. jade is adorable and i love dressing her up and putting bows in her hair. this morning ben and i cracked up trying to find one for her to wear and she kept looking like a clown. she reminds me so much of zander too. she looks just like his newborn pictures. zander said she didn't look like him cause she had black hair. so i had to bring out some of his pictures to show him. zander and ronan are so cute with jade too. zander for some reason insists on calling her 'jada'. not sure what thats about but it's funny. they always want to say hi to baby. ronan wants to sit behind me and play with my hair while i'm nursing. he points at me and says, "mama bottle" and then points to jade. at least he understands nursing! :) smart little guy. zander is very possessive of her and wants to 'keep an eye on her' all the time. i have good liittle boys and i am so proud of their capacity to love and care and accept their little sister. today when my mom picked up ronan from the nursery, the workers told her ronan was quite the 'big brother'. everytime a kid cried ronan would go up and pat their back and lay their head on them. such a cutie!
as for me, two days ago my pelvis started clicking again. it doesn't necessarily hurt when it clicks, it's just a gross feeling. but then yesterday it started hurting more. i think it may have been because i'm trying to get stuff done or be on my feet. it's still not nearly as painful as it was by a long shot, but it's definitely starting to hurt. sitting and walking is hard. so needless to say, God knew i was really going to need ben during this time, so i'm glad he's home!! but it's frustrating to take it easy and not help out! i want to get back on my feet and get going again. blah....i'm so eternally grateful that our church and friends are doing meals for us. that's been the hardest for ben.
anyways, thanks for the prayers and please continue to pray, especially for my pelvis.